Friday, September 22, 2006

My Story

I guess my story about my mis – adventures in our feminist society and the brainwashing that comes from is similar to that of most other guys here, except there is one twist maybe. Maybe these guys also had a similar problem as I did only they don’t admit it.

I was a very happy child. A very bouncy and hyper – active one. I loved to draw and play video games and developed a passion for all things Mario at this time. The only drawback to this was I was a loner, mainly because I liked it that way. The fact I had an acute hearing problem at birth and had to take speech therapy until I was 13 could have attributed to this. I turned inwards.

Now the problems for me started when I was 11 or 12, when all of a sudden and out of nowhere, My parents told me, in a way, that pretty much EVERYTHING I was passionate about up to that point was childish and that I needed ‘ to grow up. ‘ One of my key passions was ( and still is ) all things Mario. Now I know some guys reading this will disagree with me and will tell I need to grow up. Trust me, I’ve tried to give it up and guess what happened. I felt empty, as if someone had taken the life out of me.

Why am I saying this? Because when I did this and suppressed it all to please them. I was greeted by an awful truth; A Dysfunctional family. The poison? Alcoholism. Even at 11, I knew that this what they wanted me to grow up to be, their idea of ‘ normal ‘ , an alcoholic. I was also assaulted numerous times by my father if I tried to do anything about it. Its just sick and twisted! I’d take all things Mario any day over alcoholism!

That led to me becoming very depressed and the fact that any advances I made towards girls at this time was greeted by rejection ( and in the first case, ice thrown in my face…. Ouch! ) did not help AT ALL! I became what most seduction-based websites like sosuave would call a ‘ nice guy ‘ or an AFC, an absolute doormat! And, I can tell you, from personal experience, nice guys are NOT really that nice! Trust me, there is one incident that occurred when I was 16 that I want to forget and I am ashamed of! I was also quite close – minded at this time, shunning those who drank or smoked, which, in our drink and smoking crazed society, left me with barely any friends! It also this factor that led to a fall out with a girl which led to my breaking point when I was 16. I was thinking of suicide. It was then I realised, either I had to change or that I’d become a suicide statistic. I’m also from the suicide capital of Ireland! That didn’t help either!

However, I somehow managed to pull through that VERY dark period in my life and shortly afterwards, during which I felt emotionless. I got my first awakening. It was then that I first realised that I didn’t need to live to what other people expected me to. That I could be a better person and that the only person that I should please is myself! This started me off on my spiritual journey, which continues to this day. I changed…. I became open – minded and now greet almost anybody with open arms now!

Anyways, that led to me finding sosuave in my journey, the first time I came, I ended up discarding it as I thought I could make it on my own…. I was wrong. I came back last year to try and figure it out with its help. What I instead this time was another ‘ awakening ‘, when I saw why exactly women are acting the way they are in the first place and that I was being screwed over from day one! Fortunately, I’ve NEVER lost any money over any girl, mainly because I was too shy but in hindsight, I realise that, even though I’ve never even kissed a girl ( yes, I know, pathetic but so what? ) I was saved a lot of misery and hassle from being run over by a Femi – Nazi, unlike my brother.

I’ve had some interesting experiences. I’ve being part of exhibitions, field trips, pilgrimages, summer schools and whatnot. I might have it harder than some due the fact of the alcoholism in the family but ultimately, I’ll be the one who is successful and will be able to leave it all behind!

So, Here I am today. I’m now 20. I’m a first year Graphic Design student. I might not have a part time job, for which I am constantly nagged about but the idea of working in a job where all work ethics and employment laws go out the window? Not for me. I had such a job once, it nearly drove me insane! I’m not about to risk my sanity for the sake of having some extra money! I also don’t have either a driver’s license or a car because of costs and for the reason above. I don’t need one anyway. I’m also insanely private about what I do when I’m the computer and hate being watched by family members. This boils down the fact I still follow my passions, secretly though. I don’t want them to know and it DOES bug me that the house is too small for me to get any proper privacy but I’ll have to live with it!

I’m also still single but with each passing day. I’ve strangely accepting the fact that I may NEVER have a relationship, it is like as if it I just don’t cut it. Either that or the feminist society that I’ve being reading about the last few months disgusts me and I want no part of it! I also honestly have no real prefernce in regards to political parties. They are all the same to me. Corrupt and back stabbing groups and who have connections to a cult that wants to take over the world! ( ok, sorry, I went a bit out of line there )

So yeah, that is my story. Sorry if it isn’t exactly what you expect form this type of site but I felt I needed to tell it. But if there is one I want to remember, it is this;

Follow your passions, for to forsake them for the sake of being cool or popular would mean the death of your soul!

1 comment:

Callum Phoenix said...

Hey man!
It sounds like you have had a very hard time. I am very happy to see that you have endured and you are clearly a very strong person to not go down the road of drink and drugs etc. Although my experiences are but a shadow of yours I was also a loner throughout my teenage years due to my short height and overy aggressive and oversensitive attitude [which I have recently nearly managed to disipate courtesy of a wonderful hypnotist called Paul McKenna -www.paulmckenna.com/] especially with girls [and have never properly kissed one either and frankly I don't give a s**t as virtually all of them are insensitive jerks]. I could probably get any girl I wanted now that I've read http://www.doubleyourdating.com/11493/eBook/?s=11493&z=ZZZBQCASZZZZZ

I'm a Nintendo fan too btw, only I prefer Zelda more than Mario [Mario games used to frustrate the hell out of me] :) Nice to meet you!